Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

(The last four lines have ahad a particular  impact on me, as i read about Nelson Mandela in a magazine, it was this poem from which he drew inspiration during his prison years at the Robben island)

Confusion

Cryptic thoughts,
rattling words,
endless dreams

a clueless soul.

Wandering aimlessly,

unable to concieve,

repeatative redemption,

lost in a looney land,

No voices to be heard

Deaf in the noisy world

Mute among the morons

unable to

take a decision.

Dilemmatic,

Lost

and

Waiting.....

Love ??? o yeah okay :P

I feel liberated and i feel secure,
with each passing day I gather
some valour to keep myself aware
of the world around me and not totally lose
myself in you.


I like it when you're around, and
a tear trickles when you're not there.
with your arms clasped around me, I know
I'm strong.
with all those dreams being architectured with
our lives connected, I wonder how it'll be like


Smiling endlessly without any reason, waiting for
the next dawn to rise just with this happiness in heart
to meet you, to see you smile at me and to "just be with you"


Nothing much to say, cause I'm going with the flow
and believe me its taking me to a Makeshift world of my

own. a world that's full of smiles and has no room for sorrows..

I might sound a little crazy, but I'm writing what this heart's speaking....

P.S. :Readers  please note, you're most welcome to kill me for this, as I've no idea if this makes any sense or not.....

They are more miserable

Smiling through misery

cant help... but whining over my problems one evening, i came across similar looking people with a very bad stink, the worst was the condition of the baby who was looking no less than a malnourished kid from Somalia.. it then struck me that what i m constantly crying over, is far less in intensity as compared to these people sharing the same space that i was in.......... i hope i come over my problems soon and so do they...

Write Write write!!!

Yeah ok
I'm... I'll
Yeah so here i m to think and scribble something
But my mind can't come up with anything right now :( :(
ummmm ...... THE CAMPUS WALK........ Bah!!!!


I din't get to participate in the orientation program when i joined college... and maybe thats why i had to pay for it while i'm the member of the CUS (College Union Society) now...


Met a few NEW people too... day-college students, and finally came to know the LnD convenor and so the entire CUS cabinet (will it make a difference? well it has just added to the quick interaction ability of mine ahem ahem!!)
Got to know of places i din't even hear of in the past two years (as if i care!!)
Still had a tiring walk with a herd of freshers who went on giggling for no reasons (or maybe at me, whatever), shy group of first-time college goers ..... reminds me of my first year too but i know it won't take them long to gel into the atmosphere that this college provides and it will be soon when they will have the attitude of being an MCCian..
Laid-back and relaxed... rest everything is left to time..


I have walked a lot :(


and yeah most importantly i met MY PEOPLE :) :) after a long long time.... which reduced most of my weariness
anyway rest when i'm really in the right mood o WRITE :) :) :)


(hope it's read  by someone :P :P)

Among the Blackberrys (20 days at 20:20, Chennai)

Yeah its the last day in office tomorrow...... last day with people who are a part of "corporate world"

quite an experience.... got to perceive a lot, and observe too.... will miss my revolving wheel chair, computer and facebook :( :(

but taking back along with me a lot of memories to cherish....

like

my next table colleague's hunger spanks!!! a real foodie, hungry every 10 minutes but cute smiling sweet female to chat with..... i still dont know why she slams her desk phone afer talking to any xyz...

hmmm zam, trendy, sassy, today's girl... lively and really good looking

someone from here, hmmmm always smiling, and one call to his name, he will spring out of his place and will come to your rescue.....

the 1st person i see once i enter the office, she will speak in a typical english, but you wont mind... reason she is just nice... always helping

the handsome boss who loves to harass hos employees for no reason!!!

the strict looking manager, always with a serious look on her face, never seen her smiling,

a detailed person, goes deep into whatever little you ask him

branch head now, very cute smile

hmmmm my interviewer, who looked punctual but is actually chilled out.

the other lady always smiling and cheerful no matter what

.

hmmm volkswagen guy reminds me of a friend... always travelling.

gave me an office caution too :) :)


i made a mess by saying press conference to a press release, i was assigned the first work of writing a press release and not a press conference by him :P

.and its his wedding anniversary on the day i'm leaving....

and last but not the least..... chechi..... trying hard to know my lunch contents "chappati" neha madam...(ahem ahem!!) my evening coffee .... thanks to her :)



the VCs with Chennai, mumbai, delhi, pune, hyderabad all talking simultaneously and smiling at each other :): ), conference room lunch, friday morning training at 7:30 (bah!! hard to keep your eyes open)

everyone has a typical distinct feature different from one another... all are experienced ... m no one to judge

last day tomorrow, cryptic about how will it be like

i have someone else to replace me from day after onwards....

i wish i could have some more days... to be a part of it

just a few more days

but everything that starts has to end

so will this

and it has

goodbye 20:20

thank you all :)

(for making me LEARN)

hope to meet you all soon :) :) :)

It was my choice...

Sitting on the corner bench in the park,

She comes daily to notice the peculiarity

of the statue's arch.

often sits there for long hours

wondering her countless thoughts and

painting her endless imaginations

battling with her loneliness,

searching for her existence,

lost and tired she realizes,

it was her choice

sitting on the same bench for nearly a decade now,

she recounts the days that have gone,

almost everything she has, that she ever wanted,

nothing to complain about, or nothing to regret.

still there are cryptic thoughts that haunt her all day long....

bidding her daily goodbye to the statue and its arch,

she drags herself to her only home in dark,

here she's surrounded by four blank walls,

her only friends who sometimes turn her most

worst enemies

slowly undressing, looking into the mirror,

she observes herself, her countenance, her figure

recalling her youthful summers that have gone...

realizes if things would be any different

and after a few sighs,

her naked reflection mockingly remarks,

"so wasn't this your choice?"

suddenly?

Blogging--- a text msging session with a dear friend explained me what it is.... i hope it helps me in some positive way. Happy Blogging to me :)